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Lala&Pessimist
Lala
190296.
Proud member of VJ Choir (ALTO!)
Pessimist
080796.
The Meridian Stage.
Haig Girls School o8'
Cedar Girls Secondary.
Cedar Choir.
Victoria Junior College (Lala)
Meridian Junior College (Pessimist)
Lala
Music
Paramore
Lupe Fiasco
The Icarus Account
KT Tunstall
Guitars.
Pessimist
Writing
Reading
Running
Poetry
Pierce The Veil
Paramore
Wants!
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UPDATED:26.05.2013
Lala's Wishes :
Watch That Perfect Sunset
Spend more time on my music
Loads of Freddo & Timeout chocolateee!! (:
Own a pet Snow Leopard
Pessimist's Wishes :
Survive 2013
Write more
Become a penguin
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Friday, September 11, 2009 @ 11:05 PM
I feel so left out right now. I feel like ripping myself to shreds.
-Lala
Labels: Lala
Shut Your Lips.
@ 8:53 PM
Hello.
After reading the previous post by Lala, I got a little pfsssssssssssssh. Unknown to you, some people feel like that all the time. And sometimes, the world just forgets you. But that's okay. You can entertain yourself. The world is still spinning. Carpe Diem.
Hmm...let's look at a hypothetical case. Let's say, hypothetically of course, this girl is innocently playing with her phone when it rings. She looks at the number. She picks up the phone. She says Hello, once, twice. But the person who is speaking isn't the person she is expecting. How do you think she feels?
Moral of the story? If you're using someone else's phone, please tell the person you're calling who you are. Better yet, use your own phone.
Anyway, spent yesterday cleaning. Had Macs for supper and OREO McFLURRY! WOOTS. I love that stuff.
Today, I spent my morning and afternoon baking helping my mother bake. Chocolate chip cookies! Yummy. :)
Oh btw, I am sorry if I haven't been replying your msgs, if you msged me. My brother hid my phone and it was on silent mode. So awesome.
Okay omg I am so freaking bored. I'll post more later. Bye peeps.
[Sometimes goodbye is a second chance.]
-Pessimist
Labels: Pessimist, SPAZTICNESS
23
Thursday, September 10, 2009 @ 9:03 AM
23 is such a scary number yea? *Ehem maggy lory*Last yr my reg number was 22Now its 17 :))
I dont think this should count as an emo post but.
I feel so :\ again ahh but its not an emo feeling.
But being left out and forgotten really.........
Ahh nvm.
Current Music: 23- Jimmy Eat World
Mood: :X
Lala<3
I fell for sure last night,
At once we said goodbye.
:(
IM NOT EMO KAY??!?!
Labels: Lala
MOLEcules, Toilet Paper and Meatballs.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009 @ 9:09 PM
Hello.First things first, thank you for tagging people! I'm not going to be emo again for a long long long time cos I'm too busy laughing right now. :D Today was quite fun. I woke up early. And I spent the morning looking through old photo albums with my mother and two brothers. We laughed at the total randomness of my elder brother and me. But if I may say so myself, I looked very cute. :D I lost track of time helping my mother hanging up the curtains and I ended up going out of the house late.Half ran, half skipped to the bus stop and waited forever and a half for 966. It was so damn hot! I was perspiring like crazy. Reached the library only 20 min late. :P And I'm happy to say that Rachel, Yasmin and me actually managed to get some work done. WOOTS. And thank you so much Rachel for bringing the extra notes for me and helping me with my maths. Thanks Yasmin for keeping us entertained with The Meatball song and MOLEcules. HAHAHAHAHA. It's a good thing the librarians didn't kick us out for laughing like retards. :DAfter that, we went to Parkway Parade and just walked around, laughing AGAIN and AGAIN at weird stuff. We saw so many people! *sigh* Why am I cursed to always see somebody at that place? I saw a choir senior, ex-HGS seniors, HGS people and another random Cedarian. Correction: Two random Cedarians. Anyway, we found this really cool shop which sold really awesome things like post it notes and stuff and we ended spending like, 15 min in there. The shop assistant was asking Yasmin if she needed help. HAHAHAHAHA. We walked around a lot, until Yasmin had to leave. :( Rachel and me went to Borders after that. We spent like 5 min looking through a makeup magazine with all these photos of really cool special effects. Like MJ in Thriller MV! Scary man. Oh and I ran like a mad chicken cos Pepita was at PP too! HAHAHAHAHA. Walked to the bus stop and caught 966 nicely. :D But I perspired like a mad chicken, AGAIN. ARGH. GAH. TOINKER. :DIt's time for...
RANDOM CRAP!-I'm going to finish all my homework by Friday! WOOTS. -Juliet is stuck in my head! And it won't go away...GAH!-I'm going to save like crazy. -OREO McFLURRY ROCKS.-I miss drama all of a sudden.-My room actually looks recognisable and less like magnesium exploded in it.-Whatever you do, please don't sneeze on somebody's spaghetti.-Devils actually need handphones.-When I said charcoal, someone thought I said CHOCOLATE. Gee, I wish.-I like today's date! The ninth day of the ninth month of the ninth year. 9.9.09!Okay I am done. Goodnight peeps. I AM A SPAZTIC LOSERRR. :D[Misery Loves Company,
But company loves more.
More loves everybody else,
But hell loves others.]
-Pessimist
Labels: Pessimist, SPAZTICNESS
No More Emo Posts :))
@ 7:32 PM
Tmr 3-to-1 session with Sherman!And I hope to write anymore emo posts :)Thank yall who tagged I feel better now :))And you too Farah, dont be sad anymore kays?Must MUG TEAPOT tmr kay? ( inside joke XD)Haha buka puasa today was very fun!My bro was toking abt puberty again , which made me REALLY sick haha. And me, my older sis and two younger bros were laughing like retarded peepos but we had to be silenced cos masjid is right behind the hse rite? and OMFAS!My bros made me play Maplestory again =,=But I find it more less fun than before, now that so many things change.And I STILL WANT MY SIMS 2 PETS :((((Right aft dinner i went up to my mum's room and switched quickly to mtv and seeing it was Y2k hits (which is really boring in my opinion) from the starhub programme thingy on the bottom of the screen,i quickly changed back to disney. But i got a sudden glimpse of an oh-so-familiar face and i screamed out of delight haha.I quickly changed the channel back to MTV and yes! It was KT Tunstall :))) I was practically screaming throughout the last few seconds of the music video , black horse and a cherry tree ,haha.Okhay retardd yea?And Paramore's got a new song released!!It's called Brick by Boring Brick and its REALLY good :))The acoustic is SO Much better than the studio version.I get goosebumps when I hear the chorus its so good oh gosh! Especially the effect that the lead guitar gives. And haha, her voice cracks sometimes throughout the song.Well you built up a world of magicBecause your real life is tragicYeah you built up a world of magicIf it's not realYou can't hold it in your handYou can't feel it with your heartAnd I won't believe itBut if it's trueYou can see it with your eyesEven in the darkAnd that's where I want to be,YeahSuch a great song is so personal...Eh, no more EMO!!Lala<3Ba Da Ba. Ba Da Ba Bada !Labels: Lala
To _________.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009 @ 11:34 PM
Dear ______,There are so many things that I want to tell you right now but I just can't. It just seems so hard. So lets start from the very start. I this is gonna be quite a long post so yea.I've always respected my friends. I respect what they say, what they think, what they do, EVERYTHING. I respect EVERYONE, no matter how terrible they are. Im the kind of person who knows what so say to not hurt one's feelings. I DONT make assumtions at all. I can easily tell if one hates me, or likes me, or whatever.Eversince the first day of orientation, I could remember almost EVERYTHING that happened between me and you. Even tho those were the days we didn't talk too much ( in fact, not at all), I knew that you were someone... different. From just the moment we made the first real eye-contact during the Tree and Squirrel game, to our last convosation just now, I've always respected you, if it hasnt been obvious enough. I remember that time when we became friends first because of malay class, where Sarah your partner will talk too much ( I know how that feels) and I'll try to make her shussh. All that malay slang and chair-kicking :):(
Honestly, I've never respected someone my age so much. All those times you were just THERE for me, to cheer me up. All those times you told me to smile more :(And I can remember those times, when you cried when you told me your problems. I cried too. But you just didnt see. I dont think anyone knows this but I CRY. I cry for my friends that get hurt. I cry for people I dont even know. People i've heard stories of. I cry for those people who sacrifice theirselves just for the sake of someone else and end up regretting it for the rest of their life. The reason we dont talk anymore is really quite clear. You're ALWAYS with them. I dont have a problem with them but everytime I want to talk to you, they just barge in with saying some rubbish about that-thing-you-all-do-but-i-dont. It's really hard you know? I didnt write those words because I have a problem with them, or to set them up.Before this, I always went to YOU for help. And I've never regretted it before. You were my sunshine at the end of a bad day. The one who picks me up after a terrible storm. :(When I was all alone, you used to come to me and talk, and i'd be happy in a few seconds. But now, you're barely there anymore.
And furthermore, your words HURT me. Its just the most painful thing to read. I knew that you never meant to hurt anyone. And all you say is the truth, but it's just HARD to say.Im not angry at you, dont worry.Im just.........
-LalaIn Your Name,I Find MeaningSo I'm Holding On,Im Barely Holding On To YouLabels: Lala
Broken
@ 10:21 PM
There are some things that always make one feel so shitty and PISSED for IDK what reasons!!1. Time Management Issues2. WAS THERE EVER A RULE THAT SAID THAT IT IS COMPULSARY TO HANG WITH 'YOUR OWN GANG'? OR WHATEVER THEM UG GROUPS HAVE OUT THERE!?!?!?3. People must REALLY forget about their SENIORS sometimes cos it can really piss people off4. Sometimes one must TAKE CHANCES and TAKE A STEP FORWARD if they want things to ever CHANGE FOR THE BETTER.5. A simple sentence like 'SHE DOESNT WANT TO GET ANGRY AT ME COS IM STILL HER FRIEND KAY?!?!?!?' REALLY hurts to SAY and can make you feel like tearing the shit out of yourself.The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonightMaybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my timeI am here still waiting though i still have my doubtsI am damaged at best, like you've already figured outI'm falling apart, I'm barely breathingWith a broken heart that's still beatingIn the pain there is healingIn your name I find meaning So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' onI'm barely holdin' on to youI try to hold on.But I can't-LalaIm not angry at you. Im just...: (Labels: Lala
Queer.
@ 9:00 PM
Hello.
I'm feeling a little odd tonight. My mind is in a tumult. Considering the past, the present, the future. The good and the bad. Listening to the sound of rain...
The Past. Plenty of regrets, triumphs, laughter. Tears? Not so much.
Change? Yes. There was a lot of change. My perspective stayed the same, or so I thought. Someone told me I changed a lot. I still can't see where. Yet I miss those carefree days. When my mind wasn't plagued with someone else's thoughts. Correction: When my mind wasn't plagued with thoughts of someone else. I sort of...lost control. Now, the memories are hazy. I can't remember much. I wasn't living my life. I was living it through someone else's eyes.
The Present. Less triumphs. A whole lot more disappointment, regret.Tears? They flooded my conscience.
Again, a lot of change. More brooding. Thinking.
Wrong, over and over and over again.
Horror, hurt, hunger.
Insecurity, jealousy, utter stupidity.
Faking, pretending, silence.
Overactive imagination, running wild. Running.
Confusion.
The Future. Uncertain. Will I succeed? Or will I fail?
Surprises.
Goodbyes.
A new me?
We shall see.
I'm getting a little emotional going through my memories.
Just think about this.
My best friend gave me the best advice,
He said each day's a gift and not a given right.
Leave no stone unturned,
Leave your fears behind,
And try to take the path less traveled by.
That first step you take is the longest stride.
If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late,
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last,
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had,
If today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?
Against the grain should be a way of life,
What's worth the price is always worth the fight.
Every second counts,
Cos there's no second try.
So live like you're never living twice.
Don't take the free ride in your own life.
If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late,
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?
And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above,
That you'd finally fall in love
If today was your last day?
If today was your last day,
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars,
Regardless of who you are.
So do whatever it takes.
Cos you can't rewind a moment in this life.
Let nothing stand in your way.
Cos the hands of time are never on your side.
If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late,
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?
And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above,
That you'd finally fall in love
If today was your last day?
-If Today Was Your Last Day by Nickelback
I shall leave you to ponder the meaning of the lyrics. Goodnight.
[I've wasted too much time on insecurities.]
-Pessimist
Labels: Pessimist
Ever Heard Of Over Procrastination?
Monday, September 07, 2009 @ 9:08 PM
Hello.
GAH. That's all I can say. GAH.
Wait, let me breathe for a while.
For your information dear reader, prior to writing this post, I was rushing around my house like a mad chicken trying to get my parents to actually write a letter for me. And my parents were arguing about what to write. And the best part is, if I didn't scan it and send it to Esther, she's going to kill me. Which was the reason why I was panicking actually. Today's practice did not help at all. But I'm keeping my mouth shut about that.
We practised Riverdance Medley, which is quite nice. :) And we're going to sing with an orchestra! WOOTS. For warm ups, we did crunches and push ups. I don't really see how that helps with our singing...but it's still good exercise. :D
We have to practice Zai Ixoiten, Kiurun Tie, In My Daughter's Eyes and Riverdance Medley. Yay. And Kiurun Tie is, I quote a senior, 'The most annoying song on Earth. I couldn't care less if it vanished off the face of the planet.' HAHAHAHAHA. I laughed like a retard.
Okay I should stop talking about choir. It's making my stomach muscles ache. LOL. :D
Can't wait for Wednesday. Might be going to the library to study with Rachel Lee, Yasmin and Abigail. :) Yay all the smart people can help me with my maths, history and geog. :)
Oooh talking about homework, I did my English comprehension and some maths questions. Some equates to about 5 of the easiest questions in the paper. HAHAHAHAHA. It's not my fault it's so hard! I also studied my Chinese. WOOTS. :D
Okay I am going to read some random crap. I'll post more if I have the time yeah? Byeee peeps.
I AM A SPAZTIC LOSERRR. :D
[Why are you so obsessed with me?
Why am I so obsessed with you?]
-Pessimist
Labels: Pessimist, SPAZTICNESS
Oh Gosh This Is Creepy
Sunday, September 06, 2009 @ 10:32 AM
ZOMG! This Video is SERIOUSLY disturbing....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xU9W7Qo1T6M"RUN LITTLE CHILDREN, RUN!"
Lala<3
Labels: Lala
17 February!!!!
@ 9:50 AM
17 Feb is such a COOL day!!I apologise to Farah for ranting On and on abt 17 Feb yesterday! Just like how i rant abt the num 23 and 21..Seriously yo!People Born On 17 Feb:
Lupe Fiasco ( Best rapper out there :D)
Bonnie Wright ( Actress who plays Ginny Weasley
:D)
Michael Jordan ( One of the Best B-Ballers
EVER!!)
Billie Joe Armstrong ( GREENDAY lead vocalist and
guitarist)
Michael Bay ( Transformers Director )
Paris Hilton ( ERMM Yucks?!?!?)
Haha ZOMG this day alsoLast year I kena scolded by my ex-maths teacher +.+Urgh i can remember....And its also my ex-maths teacher's daughter's BIRTHDAY :))GAHH! I wish I was born on 17 Feb : (((However that wouldnt make me and Amalina 'twins' ;))IMY!! U should've came Cedar instead of RGS ;(((And I CHANGED THE BLOGSKIN!!I think Farizan used it before IDK..I think Sarah would like love it..Apparently I found it as it was the skin of the day for 17 Feb 09Scary huh?Lala<3Labels: Lala